Okay IM BACK

Sorry that I haven't blogged in awhile I was on leave with the husband and just went back to school so I have been crazy busy. Anyways here is a deployment update!

We had an AMAZING leave, he was exactly the same and was romantic and sweet. We had an awesome vacation we stayed at home for part of the time just hanging out and having fun. Went to the museum, waterpark, had game night with friends, just relaxed! Lots of talking and catching up. Wii tournaments. Just tons of fun stuff. Then we went to the Rocky Mountains and stayed in a gorgeous hotel, we went in the jacuzzi every night...walked in the snow and looked at the stars. Romantic dinners at amazing restaurants. Went on a Ice Hike which was very cool. Basically it was like a pre-honeymoon absolutely perfect.

Then came time for him to go back. I cried, he cried. It was a very emotional and long trying day. But there we were at the security gates hugging, crying, kissing. Then letting go. My heart was ripped out again. But I bravely walked out of the airport that knowing the next time I saw those blue eyes he would be home for good. We only had a 2.5 month countdown when he left so much easier than the first part which was 4 months.

So now I am back into school and at home, and oddly enough I am doing good at home. No breakdowns or crying in fact its very peaceful. Im keeping busy with my friends, courses and school and have practically got my whole calendar booked up until he comes home! He called last night to tell me he wouldn't be able to call during March which made me cry for the first time since he went back, but its okay I'm tough and will make it.

Our countdown to homecoming is at about 2 months and I am really excited this is almost over. Ill be updating frequently again so you all stay posted!

Boxing Day Blues

So here I am at 10pm on Boxing day staring at my computer why do I feel so down?

Cause my hubby never got to talk to me on Christmas. He changed his status and then sent me a msg saying "Internet failing i'll try later'....he TRIED calling but couldn't hear me at 9 am on Christmas Day.

All I want is to talk to him. He gave everyone else the phones first on Christmas, and by the time he got to them, they wouldn't work. Some of the wives I know have gotten 4 phone calls on Christmas, and one or more today. Like SERIOUSLY karma cut me a break all I want is to hear him say "I love you'. Don't get me wrong if your spouse is deployed now and you got a call I'm ECSTATIC for you; I'm happy you got to talk to your loved one.

All I want is a simple call, or even a few minute chat on the computer.

And to add to my bad mood I'm in I got more Mother-in-law issues on my mind. She is now posting messages on my hubby's facebook wall stating she "Can't wait to see you on your HLTA".....which I sent an email to the hubby telling him she won't listen to me and he will have to tell her AGAIN that she WONT be seeing him on HLTA.

Sorry for the rant just my family is still in HOLLY-JOLLY mood and I can't talk to them.

Best Christmas Gift EVER!

So I was moping around the house tonight feeling down cause of Christmas....and the phone rings!!!!!! Its the hubby and that was special enough for christmas week!!!

So we get to talking and he said he can't wait to open his gifts in a few days, and that he really misses being at home...and he said he is glad I bought myself my pot set (I got it a few days ago on sale for 70 percent off which made them only 300 dollars, and they are my dream pots I've wanted for years Royal Doulton Stainless Steel) for Christmas. Then our conversation went like this....

"So I've been thinking of enrolling in night university classes when I get home" -Hubby
"Oh ya to finish your med school?" -me
"Not really...' - Hubby
"Oh something else then?"
"Ya something like Hospitality management' - hubby
"What? thats the course im taking in like 10 years?!!!" - me utterly confused
"Well you see I was thinking while you work on your red and gold seal Ill get the hospitality management degree and then we can open up your restaurant sooner, in like the next five years." - hubby

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!! I started crying I am sooooooooo happppyyyy he is giving me the best gift EVER he is helping even more than ever me reach my dream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He wants to open the restaurant in 5 years or less!!!!!!!!!! BEST EVER I AM STOKED....<3
Best christmas gift of my life.

Same old waiting game

Just sitting here late at night as usual wondering about the future. I am really tired of this waiting game that has become our relationship....training = waiting, courses = waiting, deployment = alot of waiting and worrying.

Im tired of it, I can't wait for these next 4 months to fly by, It has been going pretty fast even I'll admit that, but I can't wait for a normal-ish relationship where he comes home everynight, I wont have to sit and worry if one of our buddies hero pictures will be on the front page of the newspaper when I awake, or worse a dreaded phonecall or doorbell ring at my own house. I just don't want to live this lifestyle anymore our whole relationship has been this.

It SUCKS and its not enjoyable, many of you are lifers with your man and for that I think your amazing and strong women I'd never want to do this forever. But you are all strong and will make it through, I know this as I rely on you on my bad days.

I guess what im saying is I WANT HIM HOME. Almost 12 weeks down, almost half done.

He called FINALLY

Hey just thought I would let you all know that he finally called, a month with no phone calls has come to an end.

I am EXTREMELY emotional right now so I can't write much but basically:

Its killing me inside how homesick he is.
He got all my mail finally
He really wants HLTA to start
He hasn't changed one bit, thankfully

I am feeling every kind of feeling there is right now, but mostly I just crazy miss him and want this to end.

Can't stop crying!!!!

I just wanted to let you ladies know, I finally got an email from the hubby....I am completely overwhelmed with emotions in a GOOD way. He knows just what to say to make me get that boost of strength i needed to carry on.

Thanks for all the support lately. =*) 66 days down!

FML...

Argh!!!!!! So after no contact from the hubby for two weeks I finally got an email two days ago saying he was going to try to call tomorrow *which was yesterday* after no call, and NO call this morning either....BEEP-BEEP my phone goes at lunch telling me I got a facebook message from Matt.

Bad News: phone circuits down won't be able to call for at least another two weeks.

FML I wanted sooooo badly to hear his voice now I have to go a whole month without hearing from him, or longer.

I can't wait for this deployment to be over with....a relationship is hard to keep up when you don't get to talk to the person you love and married. Whats worse is I am starting to forget those things he does how he hugs, kisses, talks, etc....I know we all go through that but I just want to talk to him.

Thanks for all the ladies who have been there and still are. BLAH
Hope you all had better days.